Wednesday, June 12, 2013

Shocking![Must Read]...‘I lost myself in loving you’: Bollywood actress Jiah Khan’s suicide letter to cheating boyfriend


Jiah Khan and boyfriend. Photo: omg.yahoo.com

The boyfriend of a Bollywood actress who was found dead at her home in Mumbai has been arrested on suspicion of abetting her suicide.
Jiah Khan, 25, was last week found hanged by her mother at their apartment in the Indian city. Police said no suicide note was found.
Suraj Pancholi, 21, the son of famous Bollywood actors Aditya Pancholi and Zarina Wahab, was arrested late yesterday. He had been Khan’s boyfriend for about a year and was the last person to see her alive.
A six-page letter found in Jiah Khan’s bedroom has come as a shocking revelation for her family and fans. The 25-year-old actress, who came across as a bubbly woman, was actually traumatised and lovelorn.

Excerpts from the letter are below:


‘I LOST MYSELF IN LOVING YOU’: THE LETTER TO HER ‘CHEATING’ BOYFRIEND
‘I don’t know how to say this to you but I might as well now as I have nothing to lose. I’ve already lost everything. If you’re reading this I might have already left or about to leave. I am broken inside. You may not have known this but you affected me deeply to a point where I lost myself in loving you. Yet you tortured me every day.
These days I see no light I wake up not wanting to wake up. There was a time I saw my life with you, a future with you. But you shattered my dreams. I feel dead inside. I’ve never given so much of myself to someone or cared so much. You returned my love with cheating and lies.
It didn’t matter how many gifts I gave you or how beautiful I looked for you. I was scared of getting pregnant but I gave myself completely.
When I first met you I was driven, ambitious and disciplined. Then I fell for you, a love I thought would bring out the best in me. I don’t know why destiny brought us together.
After all the pain, the rape, the abuse, the torture I have seen previously I didn’t deserve this. I didn’t see any love or commitment from you. I just became increasingly scared that you would hurt me mentally or physically.
Your life was about partying and women. Mine was you and my work. If I stay here I will crave you and miss you.
So, I am kissing my 10-year career and dreams goodbye. I never went with anyone else. I am a loyal person. No other woman will give you as much as I did or love you as much as I did. I can write that in my blood…
You never even met my sister. I bought your sister presents… You never appreciated my love, kicked me in the face… The Goa trip was my birthday present but even after you cheated I still spent on you.
I aborted our baby when it hurt me deeply… I wish you had loved me like I loved you… I leave this place with nothing but broken dreams and empty promises. All I want now is to go to sleep and never wake up again…’
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Omg! Omg! *Crying

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